Cold Nostalgia

Friday, May 14, 2010 @ 12:42 AM

Just a dream.

You're the sky that I fell through and I remember the view whenever I'm holding you.

I can't remember the last time I fell in love. It was such a long time. It was a bittersweet love. Looking back at those times I first fell in love, it was one of the strangest feeling. I can't explain why but that's what I felt. Honestly, I almost forgot that I have my heart, which is beating, beating for no one. I have my crushes at school but I don't think I will fall in love wit them. I'm a kind of person who doesn't get easily deceive by the traps of love. With all the things I've been through, how can I trust someone?

I have been dreaming of this someone. Been dreaming him in two consecutive days. When I woke up, I could remember the people who were there in my dreams except him. I can't remember his face. I'm trying to recall that face, that angelic face. In my dreams, we were lovers. We were holding hands and kissing. (OMG, I can't believe I did this in my dreams. I never kissed anyone.) His arms around me gave warmth. It was the sweetest feeling I 've felt even it was just a dream. We're like Romeo and Juliet, loving each other against all odds. How I wish it was true! How I wish it was real! But it's just a dream, a foolish dream.

I told this dream to my friend. She was shocked because It happened to her before. She dreamed having that someone who she didn't meet that time and after dreaming of that unknown person, she fell in love with her ex-boyfriend. She said it might be a warning for me that I'm gonna fall in love again. If this might happen to me, I'd rather love no one than to risk myself again in the magical world of love. I've suffered too much. I don't wanna be hurt again. I can't bare any pain again. I don't wanna be a broken-hearted girl.

But all of a sudden, I realized that it was a long time since I first fell out of love. And I miss the feeling of having that someone whom you can give your love, your trust and your companion. Maybe this might be hard again, managing your time for studies and love. But for now, I'm gonna work hard for my studies. I have God, my family, and my friends who can make me happy. :)

About that dream. whoever he is, whether it's true or not, I still believe in love but not at this moment of time. Maybe someday, sooner or later. I'm gonna take my time in settling things. Great things happen in great people. Let's wait for the right moment. :)

Whoa, he got my head in the clouds. He got me thinking out loud. The more I dream about him, the more that I believe that nothing's ever out of reach so dream, dream, dream. :)

Breathe for love tomorrow 'cause there's no hope for today. Breathe for love tomorrow 'cause maybe there's another way.

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