I think my life gets more boring as day goes by. School-home-school-home. No time for gala. No time for myself :( No time for giving myself a break. In short, lifeless. Long ride and heavy traffic way to school and way back home. My hours sitting in a congested fx make me think that studying has a lots of hardships. Need to survive this for still 2years of my college life. Sometimes, I ask myself, is this really I want for myself? I can think of nothing but to follow what my parents dream for me and also my dream, to be a CPA.

Today was a recognition day in our college. Top students and faculty were recognized for their jobs well done. As those top students went to the stage and got their certificates of recognition as Dean's Listers, I was hurt, on the back of my mind, I claimed, indeed a failure was me. :( For two consecutive years in my college life, never got any recognitions. Eto pala yung feeling ng pagiging average lang. Ngayon alam ko na. Back then when I was in highschool, I once dreamed of being just an ordinary student who doesn't study hard but still passes. I dreamed of that, yes I did, and now, I already knew the answer. A bit abnormal for me. Siguro nga di ako matalino. Siguro masipag lang ako noon. *deep sigh*

Hate this feeling. Self-pity, here you go. :'(

Shattered dreams. I'm fallin to pieces.